[120612] Falling Slowly

The song came one, suddenly and unexpectedly. The time sprang backward four years. My heart beat strong and fast, yet tangled in the desires that my head sometimes forgets.

again - 111026

you, in my dream again.


...why?

crying -111010

I was all right for a while


I could smile for a while


but I saw you last night


You held my hand so tight


When you stopped to say hello


you wished me well


You couldn’t tell that


I’ve been crying over you,


Crying over you and you said "so long"


Left me standing all alone,


Alone and crying, crying, crying, crying


It’s hard to understand


but the touch of your hand can start me crying

I thought that I was over you


But it’s true, so true


I love you even more than I did before


But darling, what can I do?


For you don’t love me

and I’ll always be


Crying over you, crying over you


yes now you’re gone


and from this moment on, I’ll be crying,

Yeah, crying, crying over you



 
It began there, at the train station in the eastern Taegu.
It took so long to get there, to leave you there, my memories of you in trash.
That's how I wanted to remember it all.

How foolishly I crumble, at the very sight of you.

Now I must journey back to the old train station.
I know not whether I want to make sure I left you there...or to retrieve you.
But this journey won't be for a while,
For I am too weary and vain...and maybe just a little bit apprehensive.

...and on I went - 090501

I saw her first. she had just shoveled a forkful of food into her mouth, hunched slightly over her plate. I could see she had plumped up again.

then I saw him. our eyes met amid his conversation with another guest. he appeared the same as before. even his contemptuous weaknesses, the shame that I once chose to forgive, were all there still. I walked on with not a trace of hesitation. my little white dress and the ruffled petticoat seemed to exaggerate the bounce of each and every step.

Rêverie

With the final days of the summer I sensed the end was near. It was time to let go. So I did.

Pain, resentment, sorrow...all receded into seemingly distant past. But I felt empty never, for my love still remained, ever so beautiful, ever so blissful, the root of everything I shall ever do henceforth. And this I want you to remember, long after the days you have forgotten.

au revoir, mon amour...